I can’t imagine that 2020 is the year anyone thought it was going to be. I am an optimist but even I, she of the glass half-full spirit – is weary. It’s difficult to try to stay in a good frame of mind when every bit of media is doom and gloom and when leaving your house can feel like a choice between temporary freedom and illness. I know that I have so much to be thankful for, and I am, but I am also vacillate between anxious and angry. The anxiousness feels like something I can continue to work on but the anger probably won’t ever go away. Every day I worry about this country being led by a sociopath and get sick at the idea that people are so broken that he might get to be in control of it for 4 more years. Point blank – I just don’t get it.

I haven’t fully fleshed out exactly what I’d like to do here besides the obvious but I feel good about it for the time being. I am hoping that writing will give me a bit of a space to channel all of my feeeeeelings and to share things that give me, and you, a little bit of a reprieve from this mad world. God knows we all need it.

It’s kind of weird to be logging into this wordpress account and writing things again. I am hopeful that the desire to write through the current times holds because it feels like the world is on fire.

I’m trying to keep perspective about the absolute abundance that is my life while quieting my brain that tries to tell me every time I cough (from allergies!) that I have Covid-19.

I am thankful for technology which has kept me in close contact with people I care about. This is not the kind of thing anyone can really imagine and yet here we are. Isolating ourselves in our homes until the smoke clears.

Let’s baby step back into this thing, okay? Okay.

Feeling – Anxious. Sad. Allergy-ridden

Listening – After Hours by The Weeknd and Jojo’s new single, Man

Reading – Nothing at this very moment but going to start Octavia Butler’s Parable of the Sower + beta read some goodness for a friend

Eating – ALL. THE. SNACKS. Current fav? Fritos Scoops + veggie cream cheese

Watching – Watched <a href=”https://www.netflix.com/title/81103093″>Fall Girls</a> with friends using Netflix Party last night. Yes, it was as awful as it looks.

Cooking – We had ramen for dinner and it was fantastic. I brought two cookbooks upstairs to thumb through before bed. Being at home is going to force my creativity and I’m into it.

Wanting – Everyone to be safe