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This is where I sit down and tell you that I am struggling to stay motivated to do pretty much anything these days. I know that in this very moment some of it is hormones but some of it is the weather and a dollop of really trying to figure out how to be effective in working from home.

That last bit is really crucial. I’ve basically always worked since I was 16 and so the notion that I don’t have a traditional job to go to is kind of left me in a weird head space. I know that it takes some time to adjust but sometimes I feel rudderless and I have to reel myself in and tell my brain to shut up!

When I stop to think about all the time I have during the day and how much I’m currently not doing with it – I get angry with myself because I know that being able to chase this dream of mine is such a huge gift.

I’m writing this all down so that I can maybe get out of my own way a little. I’m acknowledging that not having a job in the traditional sense is not easy and that I need to focus on the things that are right in front of me if I’m going to be successful. Also, I need to really commit to the be physical part of my not resolutions.

So, for better or for worse – that’s where I’m at. I’m going to stay on top of this topic because I think it’s helpful to understand just what it’s like to make that transition and als for my own sanity.

I’ve been thinking about things that I’d like to do in this year – I’m not calling them resolutions because inevitably I will make a list of those never to be looked at again. Am I playing myself by but calling them resolutions and going that it helps me to stick to them? Probably. But I make the rules of this game, so these are just general things I’ve been thinking about.

– Continue to grow my business. Really focus on reminding people that taking photos is what I love and bonus: I’m really good at it! 

– Be more physical. I’m probably never (ever, ever) going to the person who gets amped for exercise but I need to do it because I spend so many hours at my desk when editing or just not moving and I fully recognize how hard on my body that is. 

Ideally, I’d like to plan more activities with my friends that are focused outdoors. Maybe dust off that bike The Ethiopian night for me.

– Continue to read more. I Sokol can’t believe I read 14 books while I was in Ethiopia. It reminded me of how much joy books bring me and how much I can accomplish without the internet as a distraction ?

– This is crazy, but I’d like to cool something from every cookbook I own. Just one recipe from every book. And nothing that I’ve tried before.  This is one in going to have to stay on top of but would be so much fun. Maybe.

– Have more (redacted). You’re smart, I’m sure you can figure it out but my Mom might read this. 

No more promises about what this space is going to be – I’m going to use an actions speak louder than words policy. One of the main reasons I’ve not given up on this site is because I find increasingly that blogs are really, really white and the world is not that way and so I just want to do my part. That’s not snark either, some of my favorite blogs are written by white people and that’s not an issue – I just want my virtual life to be as colorful as my actual life. Remind me I said this in February, okay? Okay.

This year was okay. Is that a terrible way to describe a year? I’ve been trying to think of a way to describe all that happened this year but most of you have been around for it any way.

January
I made a vision board and surprisingly much of what was on it was at the forefront of my life. I ate many delicious brunches with people I love – this would be a recurring theme. I saw London Grammar with my friend Rebekah, would continue to play the ever-loving shit out of that record.
The Golden Girls ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

February
February is my favorite month because SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO SHIRO came into our lives. There is something about this cat that makes my heart threaten to burst out of my chest. We love her so much and continue to painfully embarrass ourselves for her affection daily.
Pretty (unnamed) princess ? we're leaving toward Shiro, I'm going to decide tomorrow.....I hope. LOL! #catsofinstagram not iPhone

March
Realized we miscounted the years we’d been married so – HAPPY 12th Anniversary to us!
The Ethiopian and I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who wished us a Happy Anniversary! We went to #blacksalt & funnily enough were seated next to a lovely couple who were celebrating their 32nd anniversary - I asked the wife the key and she said

April
My friend Liz visited from Houston. We miss her a lot still but she’s still just as free-spirited and loving as ever and Houston has no idea what a gem they have in her. NO. IDEA.
May
Photographed two weddings and a prom. They are eerily similar. Also, a gala. I was kind of busy. My friend Rebekah got married and our friend Melissa was in town so I showed her around a little and my friends? They’re rad!


  
June
I got a virus (for the first time this year) and OH MY GOD – it was the worst of the worst. The doctors thought I had mono and then went out to more obscure/weird things but then just as spontaneously as it appeared, it resolved itself. Bodies are weird.
July
The Ethiopian bought me a bike which I thought I really wanted. Turns out? I don’t really like bicycling that much. Photographed another wedding in Milwaukee. Made new friends that I know I’m going to have for a really long time.

August
Spent a lot of time with my family according to my instagram. Good job, family is important!

September
Looking back in my phone, September is about 3,000 photos of Shiro. So – pretty much an amazing month. Seriously, I don’t remember much and apparently I didn’t document it but I don’t remember it being good/bad one way or the other.

October
Went to New York with my friend Christina who took me to my first EDM show. Was also crazy sick for most of the month as some sort of virus (the second one!) tried to use my body as its host.

Also, packed up my friend Paul & headed south to visit our friend Emily in Farmville, VA. I laughed (and drank) a lot that weekend.


  
November

Left for Ethiopia. Managed to leave all my pajamas in  America. Excellent packing! This was my third trip there – it feels more like visiting family who live a long car ride away than an international vacation. Still love it there.


 December
Came back from aforementioned trip to Ethiopia. Incredibly glad to be home but miss my in-laws. Social calendar explodes.


  

SUMMARY
Like all the years, this one was filled with highs and lows. I started doing photography full-time for myself after my company closed and to say I was (am?) terrified is an understatement. I have to say thank you to everyone who stood behind me this year, encouraged me, recommended people to me, or hired me to do work – you’re the MVP’s of my 2015. SUPER DUPER SPECIAL heart eyes emoji go out to Julie & Nikki L., Nina A., Jenny M. & Magi.

I set a Goodreads goal of 24 books and reached it only because I read so much in Ethiopia – but I reached it and that counts!

I cooked more because I was at home more. Hoping to share more of that here in 2016. I still haven’t decided if I’m setting actual resolutions since they all generally look the same every year any way.

I just want to continue to chase happiness, be a better person (inside and out, physically and emotionally) and work on not letting my fears get in front of my dreams.

I hope that however your 2015 ends, you are able to let it go with peace and happiness. See you (soon!) in 2016!