I say it over and over but I really do miss and want to use this space to write but then..I don’t. Part of it is just being out of the habit and part of it is trying to temper what I do/don’t say. But here we are.

So what have I been doing? A lot and nothing. Photographing a little, definitely not as much as I want to be. That is 100% a post for another day.

We’re looking for a house. A HOUSE! It’s exciting and nerve-wracking all at once. On the 4th of July we had an offer accepted for about 3 hours. For 3 hours we were beside ourselves until our realtor (who is awesome and if you need one in the DC/MD/NoVa area – ask me!) called to let us know that the contractor’s entire basement renovation was not permitted which means we had to walk away. Thankfully, I had two parties to go to and so I was mostly distracted but the next day the disappointment settled in nicely. I’m largely over it now, and we keep on keeping on. Send me good vibes :D

My Mom is scheduled to have surgery to repair a hernia that is causing horrible reflux in a few weeks. I am nervous. She seems fairly calm about it though, so I’m going to try to project that for her.

Otherwise, lots of the same. Needing desperately to motivate and give my days more structure. Trying to stop repeating that and actually do it.

I had such a fantastic day today. Met my e-friend, Inga, who it felt like I’d known forever and a day. We ended up with friends; eating, laughing, drinking wine, listening to music and dining wine. Did I mention there was wine? There was so much wine.

Sometimes when I step back and think about how much joy the people I love bring me, it feels unfair because there is SO much love. But I’m just going to take it in and be grateful.

Look, I could start this post off with an apology for an endless stream of cat photos and very few words but you don’t want to hear my platitudes, do you? Okay, then :) I will say that I’ve been having lots of conversations with my friend Zal about missing what blogging used to be and feeling a little nostalgic and a lot angry that everything is all about the Tubmans now. But, I digress.

I’ve been thinking a lot, a lot lately about paring down my wardrobe. Partly because I think my style is evolving and partly because I think it would just be easier to get dressed. So what does paring down mean to/for me? Ideally I’d like the largest core of my closet to be denim and things that are either navy, grey, black or white. If you know me or have followed me for any length of time you know this is just a bit absurd because I dress like a bag of skittles and I think I WILL keep some things that are colorful, but ultimately – I really, really need to purge some things and my closet and stop holding on to stuff.

I’m not going all Konmari Method or anything, but I just think about the amount of things I own and it makes me frown aggressively. Yesterday, I cleaned out my desk and the amount of just paper and usb cords and …stuff – I wanted to punch myself in the eye.

If you have any experience with a minimal wardrobe, give me all your advice. I need help.

Yesterday I went to the doctor to discuss what we think are panic attacks. They are brief but terrifying and thankfully I’ve only been having them a few days. I love my doctor, she is an impossibly nice middle-aged woman who shares slightly too much with me which engenders me loving her that much more. She said I was probably the 5th or 6th person she’d had through the office yesterday who came about anxiety – I don’t want to be all misery loves company but that made me feel so much better. I had an ekg and my heart is fine which is good to know because if you didn’t know – one of the super cool things about panic attacks is that they often make you think you’re having a heart attack. I consider myself a very practical person and yet I just couldn’t quite get out of my head enough to not have those “OMG EYE YAM DYING RIGHT NOW!” thoughts – so I went and I’m fine and if you have panic attacks – please go see your doctor. Please.

Today I’m going to put clean sheets on my bed and maybe hang a different set of curtains. I find that since my work space is in my bedroom, I have to change things pretty regularly or I get restless. I’m hoping that in our next space – I’m more able to define my spaces and I can not have my “office” in the bedroom but we make do for now. I am so thankful that the weather is breaking. Winter was so incredibly brutal to my spirit – I don’t think I’d realized just how bad I needed this sunshine. It makes me want to do all the things and today I woke up and I felt – happy and ready to start to the day. Vitamin d, you’re amazing!

We’re currently driving back from Maryland having spent the day with family, celebrating the christening of the newest member of our family – it was a really lovely day.

I know I mentioned The Ethiopian’s cholesterol before and last weekend we went to visit a naturopath and developed a plan for going forward.Generally, it falls in line with the way we already eat but cuts back our animal consumption even further which I’m fine with. I was not very good at photos this week, partially because it was just a busy week and I’m not sure if I’m going to continue to post photos or just some kind of recap of what we ate. So…we’ll see how it all shakes out.

 Not pictured: sweet and spicy salmon, roasted carrots and quinoa (which we discovered The Ethiopian is VERY allergic too and causes him nausea and vomiting)

   Saag aloo aka Indian spinach and potatoes that I added a few other mixed veggies to & a rich of cream. SO. GOOD.

Masala lentils – this recipe is from the Vegan Richa cookbook which I strongly suggest you purchase – it’s SO good. You can find this particular recipe by googling. I did use the steamed lentils from Trader Joe’s and canned, diced tomatoes but otherwise followed the recipe and YUM!

   Taco lettuce cups – ground  turkey, corn, avocado, salsa in iceberg lettuce. Don’t know why it had never dawned on me to make variations on lettuce cups but we loved these and I’m adding them to the rotation.