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It seems kind of spiteful of Mother Nature to make the weekend weather gloomy, right? Today it rained, rained, rained and then snowed, snowed, snowed and rained some more. Since sugar melts when it gets wet, I mostly stayed indoors and caught up on a bunch of things on my infinite to-do list.

It was a good weekend all things said – I got to see a friend try on her wedding dresses, have an amazing brunch (highly recommended! – get dessert!) and meet a couple whose wedding I’ll be photographing this year.

So, I’ll take the rain but Spring has got to hurry up – I’m not sure how much more I can endure.

This week I started seeing my therapist again. I feel like therapy is one of those things more people need to talk about and that more people definitely need to do. It’d been a long stretch since I’d seen her but it really was liking slipping into something old and comfortable. Is it possible to miss your therapist? Because I’m thinking I missed mine.

I sat on the couch and I kid you not – two minutes in and I was in tears. It’s not that I’m in a terrible space but talking about the things that have been nagging at me – even in that short few moments just felt so…good. I’m hoping that I won’t cry every single time I’m there – not that it matters one way or the other, but crying in therapy? I was seriously saying “get yourself together!” in my head (while grabbing another tissue).

I’m sharing this not because I’m OMGSOBRAVE but just to maybe take away a little bit of the stigma that surrounds mental health and all of it’s veins. There’s so much going on in most people’s day to day that I think we forget to check on ourselves which can be catastrophic in so many ways.

Recognizing that talking about my feeeeeeelings with someone who is trained to help me sort it all out is pretty much amazing and tears aside, I’m so glad to be doing this for myself.

Doesn’t it seem like there’s never enough time in the day to do everything that you want to do but when you’re doing nothing it seems like time is at a standstill? I have always been someone who is admittedly horrible at time management but I’m trying to make a concerted effort to change this. I want to use my time in a way that serves me – and doesn’t simply involve refreshing my twitter timeline.

At the same time, I’m also giving myself room to not do. To be still and let the world kind of do its thing without me because it’s okay to not feel every moment of every day with stuff.  Because the laundry isn’t going anywhere, except to the laundromat when I get good and ready to take it.

I’ll be so, so glad when winter releases its death grip on us because spring always feels like a time for renewal and refocus.  Time to open the windows, time to clean and purge and shed the weight of the cold weather. 

In the meantime – I’m going to try to whip this place into shape and make it look like something. I’m also not putting any pressure on myself.  If a week or a month lapses where it goes unupdated? That’s okay. I’m hoping that’s not how it goes but you know – I’ve done this before ;)